||[Dec. 15th, 2005|03:51 pm]
Christmas is approaching faster each year and I always feel so caught up in other things that I never fully realise that Christmas is only a few days away! I went out to the mall shopping today. I bought Ashley's family a little gift each. I know Ashley as well as her family told me not to, but I like seeing ppl smile, especially on Christmas. Giving and not thinking about receiving, it took me a long time to figure that out. I remember Christmas' that were filled with sadness. Not because the people whom I bought gifts for didn't like their gifts, but because I was selfish and didn't get all the expensive things I wanted. Up until recently I've been like that. I took things for granted, when I didn't have a certain someone in my family anymore, I learned that being with family on these special days are what makes the holidays, not the commercial buy buy buy. So spent just over a hundred dollars on Asho's family, quite frankly I think I could have spent more. I had three hundred dollars budgeted for x-mas gifts this year. I still need to buy for my little brother, my older brother, my mother, my father, my step brother, my step mother, my uncle and my grandmother. So much to do, and there seems like such little time left.
Dearest Ali, I think I've mentioned Ashley, but only in code. To be honest, I don't care who knows or what they think about the two of us. We've been dating since December 1st, and these past two weeks have literally been my happiest. I tried countless times with countless girls, just to get them to see me for me.. Just to show them who I am. To be honest.. I'm glad none of them agreed to my proposition. I wouldn't have noticed my angel right from under my nose. I'm not going to rub in my happiness with everyone. I believe in Karma, I believe in fate. Nice guys do finish last, they always will... But now that Ashley's by my side, I don't care if I finish last. I know I'll always finish first in her books and that's all I really care about now.